Friday, October 16, 2009

这里的生活……

坦白说,我在这里读书真的面对很多很多我从来都没有想过的问题。

第一年, 独自来到这个陌生的地方,对我这“裙脚仔“真不是一件容易面对的事。来到这里没有朋友,所有的东西都回到原点……虽然觉得自己很幸运的成绩而来到这里,但这里人才比比皆是,我只不过是一件不起眼的装饰品,但我并不因此而伤心……这一年,我开始对食物不再像以往的那么挑剔,因为这里选择并不多,能够填饱肚子对我而言已觉得不错,开始对特别,美味的食物失去了欲望……回想起以往曾对食物的不满而偏食的这种坏习惯,才发觉自己的无知……平淡就是一种福气……

第二年, 生活更是在我预料之外,突然没有住宿……顿时有种无家可归的感觉。回想起那时拼命在一天内寻找房子狼狈的样子,那种处境真有如流浪汉一般, 盲目地拖着行李走在陌生的街头……没有遮风避雨的感觉,好没有安全感,感觉这一片土地,没有一寸容得下我。找到了房子,又在担心不知何时又得再搬迁……此时,朋友之间因种种现实性的问题,摩擦也渐渐加深……这一年,开始对家有种新的见解,新的感受……原来,家,是那么的温暖,幸福到原来自己生在福中不知福,二十年的岁月,才明白这简单的道理……有瓦遮头,有个归宿所,已经非常幸福……

第三年, 感觉友情渐渐变质,以往跟这里朋友快乐的回忆只能留在脑海中……人看来越来越现实,关系越来越复杂。看到对方也没有一丝真诚的笑容……难道人在现实的生活的洗涤下,以往的真诚,单纯都抹杀了吗? 兄弟们,老实说,我回到来跟你们说话时,才能真正的用自己的生分来交谈;在这里,不管说什么都要小心翼翼,深怕不知会怎样,不知不觉地就会得罪他人的感觉……

要说的实在太多了……这些只是大纲而已……人就是那么的无常,我们能做到的,就是以平常心面对,慢慢地学习解决……也要好好珍惜现有的亲情,友情,爱情等……


By: monkey

7 comments:

Yvonne said...

Jia you~

hahaha said...

haha, finally a post.
Seems you face so much trouble there. Anyway, finally you wish to share with us. (may be u got tell i oso dunno, remember, i am metrovision..T_T)

Actually i have not quite much idea on how bad the environment is at USM there, since i din ask much... U will tell us when u wan to tell. But i know u can go through it. I just know it. >.<

Anyway, 知足常乐啦。

p/s: 还是华语比较容易表达~~

七个??? said...

iverson:
i duno bout others,but i face the same problem here,accomodation,food,is not the same when we at home,friends real "face" shown when come to some realistic problem...but i think im better coz atleast im in a better environment.
this is the reason we open this blog,coz we hard to talk face to face now and this is the place we can share our feelings.
dun forget we r brothers here and we will not forget each other!

fooklim said...

gd to hear something from u..
thanks for sharing =)

七个??? said...

lol...... honestly, very dislike this place so much... hope o wont come to such place again... but i learn a lot here... i think you guys also the same just situation a bit different only...

monkey

Zhi Shan said...

jia you...

Haru said...

btw good thg is tat it makes u more mature, more appreciate on wat u have, and realise how xing fu u r in the family and frens and gf in kajang n semenyih :-)

n finally, welcome to this blog -,-